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Jesus. They just didn't get it.
 I don't fucking have what you do anymore, and it sucks, all right? he
shouted, despite his earlier decision that shouting wouldn't do shit.
Dane stood and came to kneel between Aaron's outstretched legs and put
his hands on Aaron's thighs. The warmth of Dane's touch traveled straight to
Aaron's groin.
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 No one said you weren't allowed to love again. Dane spoke softly, cutting
into Aaron's soul.
 I can't. I won't. Christ. Would David have moved on? he thought for the
millionth time.
Dane licked his lips.  What Garrett and I have is special. And I imagine
what you and David shared was similar. As a doctor, I see people lose loved
ones all the time. The grief, the sorrow, the anger. It hangs on for a long time.
Years. It doesn't ever fully go away, but it does get easier. He cocked his head
to the side.  I promise.
Aaron rolled his eyes.  You only see the death. How can you know? Dane
had never held his lover's hand while they pulled the plug, and waited until
he'd taken his last breath. He'd never not gotten to tell his lover one last time
that he loved him forever and then let half his soul go with his when his heart
didn't beat again.
 Because Garrett isn't my first lover.
Garrett put a hand on Dane's shoulder and gripped it.
Aaron looked at Dane, then Garrett, then back to Dane.
 Clint died of a brain tumor when we were in residency. We'd been
together for five years, and I could never have imagined being with anyone else.
But then one day about a year later, this cop came in bellyaching and moaning
like he'd been shot through the gut.
Aaron glanced at Garrett, who grinned like a buffoon.  You got shot?
Dane snorted.  Hell no. He got punched in the nose by a perp he'd chased
down.
 Hey. Garrett scrunched his face and wiggled his nose.  That hurt like a
son of a bitch.
 Pussy.
 Whatever.
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 The point is, Dane added, ignoring Garrett,  that you will heal, and it
does get easier. And it's okay to open up that heart again and let someone else
in. He put his hand on Aaron's chest, right above his heart, which pounded.
Aaron didn't know what to say. Two years later the wound was still raw
and burned like hell.
On the other hand, how many other men had turned him on the way Dane
and Garrett did? None.
Love? No. But lust? Definitely. No one could ever take David's place, but
perhaps Dane was right. Maybe he could find someone who wouldn't mind
sharing a space with David.
 Think about it, Dane urged and got to his feet.  We'll be here to listen if
you need to talk.
 Why?
 Why what?
 Why would you want to set yourself up for losing another man? Not only
that, but you've both insinuated wanting me to be a part of what you've got, so
why add yet another person to possible disappointment.
 Because life and living it and being happy beat the hell out of wallowing
in self-misery any day.
Is that what Aaron was doing? Wallowing in self-misery?
 Garrett and I love each other, yes, but we also both realize something is
missing. Some part of our relationship. Perhaps it's the hours we work, our
lack of time together& Maybe if we had a third, someone to bind us all
together& Don't get me wrong  he threaded his fingers through Garrett's  I
will never leave this man for another, and I don't think he would either 
 Damn skippy.
 But neither of us would object to adding a third. We've been looking,
actually. For a while. Nobody's caught our eye.
 Until you, Garrett interjected.
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Aaron's eyes widened. He didn't know what to say, could hardly breathe.
 You don't have to say anything. We're only being honest with you, and we
understand it's a really big step. We're all for being gradual, testing the waters,
so to speak. And we'd never do anything you didn't want.
 Um, excuse me? I didn't want to go to work with a plug up my ass, Doc,
Garrett interjected.
 Baby, you may not want it, but you love it. Don't tell me you don't.
Garrett harrumphed.
Dane turned back to Aaron.  If we're totally wrong about you, all you have
to do is say so.
Aaron felt a vise clamp down on his heart. They were offering a new world,
but he couldn't take it. Not now.
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